letters to vibrancy (and a farewell to 2024)
my word for 2024 was “vibrant,” and it was exactly what i needed.
it was an invitation and a reminder to LIVE. it was a constant calling to do things my scrapbook would be happy to see (and boy, was my scrapbook packed to the brim!!). i pushed myself, i existed fully, i sat with feelings comfortable and uncomfortable, i dressed up, i decorated, i celebrated, i cried, i hosted, i planned, i tried, i failed, i tried again…
“vibrant” being my north star saved my life during one of the most difficult years of my life. from jan - may, i was in a constant cptsd episode as i processed trauma around CSA that i never dealt with. in june, said abuser and my parent passed away, leading to a new spiral of grief, trauma, depression, and confusion. i lost my best friends and i felt so alone.
i also got married in italy, made new friendships, wrote another book, published a different book, attended cute and fun events like barbie prom, a book ball, and two renaissance fairs. (scroll down for pics!) i saw a lot of movies in theaters, planned cute picnic dates, scheduled fun outings with friends, read a lot of books, played with my dogs, and found a hundred tiny ways to romanticize my life. hell, vibrant lead me to getting a new medication combination that was a goddess send.
“vibrant” saved my life.
and now i’m ready for 2025,
the year of softness.
a year i don’t need saving.
a year where i move a little slower, plan a little less, host a little less often, go to bed a little earlier, and am even more compassionate with myself.
